Back to Blogging

15 January 2013

Back to blogging…I took a several month break from sharing my life in this public domain (not that I am aware of any public audience) because I was on a particularly personal and vulnerable adventure…exploring a “relationship”.  I am back to blogging because, for now, that relationship will not be my focus.  I am both sad and at peace with the fact that I will remain single for the foreseeable future.

Returning from a Christmas visit to the US, arriving in the middle of the night and waking the next morning in my own bed to the sultry, muggy warmth of a Sunday morning during cool season in Cambodia was delicious and felt very much like arriving home.  Though disoriented from the recent break-up, emotional exhaustion and jet lag, I felt safe.  During the morning church service I experienced deep peace and a sense of being back on the main road after a bumpy detour.  Detours are good and needed when work must be done on the main road.   I am grateful for all that transpired and sense that I see only a small part of what actually occurred, and undoubtably what continues to occur.

Anna fared well in my absence, starting a new exciting job with a women’s fashion magazine, moving into an apartment with her best friend from childhood along with two other young people, and boldly exploring relationships with courage I can only remember having in my youth.  I am proud of her and amazed by her.  And I am particularly glad she is here now, a comfort for me and source of connection to my own history that is so valuable when living in a faraway place.

Though anxious about returning to work for fear of all that might have gone awry in my 18 day absence, I was immediately swept up in a happy reunion of hugs, laughter, smiles and even tears.  The morning exchange of common joys and challenges in the workplace and the mutual regard shared by all the team at BEYOND served to remind me of why I am here and the beauty and gift of work.  A visit to the factory in the afternoon was encouraging, but I quickly found myself sliding right back into the role of manager and my trip back to town was a blur as my head swam with a growing list of what needs to be done now.

I close this brief post with a lump in my throat as I think about the many ways I was loved and cared for while home.  I feel as deeply connected to my friends and family as ever and my heart aches to be in the bosom of that community, enjoying simple everyday experiences together.  As I sort through all this emotion, I simply conclude, again, that being in Cambodia is my path for this season.  I know it, and can do no other.  I attach several photos as a bit of homage to my beautiful community back home.  As always the time was too short and many who are precious to me were missed.  However, what was, was good!

Particular thanks to…

Lisa for the home, in your heart and house

Barker’s and Hagey’s for the lovely evening

David’s family for the warm welcome

Tam, Dan, Myrna and Stephanie for the lunch rendezvous

Chris and Jeff for your faithful friendship

TK sisters for your abiding circle of embrace

Sandy and Bob for the best pizza and apples and laughs ever

Hilary, Ron and family for being forever family

Brother James for selling your car, again, to Rachel

Jeanne and Bill for the snowy and restful retreat

Bill, Mary and Alison for the New Year launch

Susie, Ray and all for the comforts of home shared freely

Tiffany and Art for wisdom and warmth

Andy, Nikki and family for being in it with me

Julie and Harley for sharing your lively selves in good times and bad

Dawn for the always welcoming heart and hearth

Rachel for keeping your heart soft toward your faraway mother

And David, for journeying with me and seeing it all through a lens of love

David and the Davidsons

David, Nikki, Andy, Rachel, Natalie and Alyssa

Tiffany and grandbaby Selah

Tiffany and new grand baby Selah!

Sister Susie at work

Visiting my sister Susie at work

Rachel, Tam and Dan

Rachel, Dan and Tam (Hals eldest daughter)

Rachel with wheels again

Rachel got her wheels back again…thanks brother James

Hal's sister Myrna

My favorite of Hal’s sisters, Myrna

Hal's sister Sandie and Bob

David and my favorite of Hal’s sisters, Sandie with husband Bob

(Yes, I can have two favorites!)

Beloved friends Jeanne and Bill

Best, best friend from college days, Jeanne and husband Bill

Hours by the fire with Dawn

Warm hours by the fire with Dawn, my dad’s widow…and my friend

5 thoughts on “Back to Blogging

  1. Dearest Sheila,

    We were oh-so-delighted to enjoy your, David and Rachel’s company here at the Barker Chalet.

    I am not surprised at the turn of events, because I think that God has grand global plans in mind for you and returning so quickly to a domestic life back in GH, just seemed like taking a step backwards.

    I am very happy for you, and can’t wait to hear more about your journey. Please give hugs to Anna.

    Love you dear friend!


  2. Thanks, Sheila for sharing your heart with us. I know we were all excited when we heard you were getting married, but we can also be excited that God has now led you in a different direction. Know of my love and prayers for you as you continue this journey- detours can be difficult but necessary at times. This morning as I was reading in Psalm 143:8- “Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.” Your blog mentioned mega folks God has placed in your life to encourage,comfort, guide, and being you joy in this journey. God is so good indeed. Blessings, Bev

  3. Dear Sheila,   I don’t know if this will go through, but I’m going to try because commenting on the blog doesn’t always go well.   I am so glad to read what you write.  It’s encouraging, exhilarating, alarming, and poignant all at once.  I have wished so many times that our paths would cross again, but I know we’ll have a chance for that ‘someday’.  In the meantime, please know that whenever I read one of these I’m rooting for you!   Love,   Nancy

  4. Sheila,

    It is good to hear of the love and caring that you received while at home. I’m glad you could be with family for the holidays. The photos were wonderful! I miss your smile, your warm laugh, your peaceful countenance (yes, I actually think that), and your caring input into my life.

    Thank you for sharing your adventures both here and abroad. You are on a marvelous journey and I know that God has something wonderful in store for you. I pray that you find a sense of His purpose and destiny, along with joy in every day along the way. You deserve no less.

    Greg Richards

  5. Sheila,
    My heart hurts a little for you. I hope you don’t mind. Thank God for friends and family, and thank you for sharing your story. Looking forward to this year and the possibilities in store for us all. Peace Sister.

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